wow, today was interesting, so, I fail hard, one grilled cheese sandwich (no butter) and I feel sick and utterly disappointed with myself, I hit the shower and am getting ready to head to town and pay my rent, and then he calls, "hi", says he, "Oh Hi", says I, "It's me," says he, "Hi smee," say I, original I know, so he's in town and bored, so suddenly I'm skipping gleefully down the hill into town, one half hour walk later and I'm on cloud nine, because he was bored and called me, strike 2 against deep me, so we wander around and chat shit for a while, in that companionable zone, where I am a non-sexual object because of the lard, and we drink tea, and buy crap, and drink more tea, (one small, fairtrade, skinny latte, 2 cups of earl grey, he had a green tea and 2 cups of earl grey, but that lacks relevence). we go back, take my housemates eldest son to beavers and grocery shop, oh yeah while we were in town I had to deal with the humiliation of a homeless guy who sells magazines telling him not to let me get away, and what a lucky guy he is to have me, while he protested bitterly that we were just friends, I nearly threw up.
So I cooked up chicken salad with olive oil vinagrette salami, cheese good bread, and we sat around in companionable silence until he went home, just now, and gods help me I miss him already.